Hi! I'm Sonic! Sonic the Hedgehog! I'm a transmasc enby Otherkin guy whose kintypes are Sonic the Hedgehog and a non-MLP alicorn, and I make lots of comics and TF stuff, and have a ridiculous Sonic TF animation project called It Doesn't Matter I've been working on forever!

Yeah, I've really had a track record of not getting along with my body at all, "Oh, hey, I'm not human. And there is fuck-all I can do to make my body match up with what I really am, and who I am. Well this sucks! I'm not even a girl, either? Fuuuuck!" At least the whole, "Not a girl, but a guy," thing is something I can actually do something about!

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It Doesn't Matter Zone 1: It's About Time

It Doesn't Matter Zone 2: There Are No Monsters

Updates

Sunday, May 31, 2026 - 11:36 PM

Whooo, TF comic!

I started this two-page comic in November. I'd put together a spreadsheet for myself of Species, Trigger, Type, and Location to use to give myself TF prompts, and rolled for this one. What I'd rolled here was Pegasus, jewelry, age regression, and park.

I ended up dropping the age regression part just because it felt like it would have needed more storytelling. Originally, I'd sketched our TFee with her partner, with the idea that the earrings were a gift from them. But again, that was going to need a lot more panels than I'd wanted to commit to, so I ended up scrapping partner.

Thinking up an appropriate trigger always slows me down, there're so many cool ones to choose from, I don't want to limit myself by doing the same thing every time, so doing different prompts seems like a good way to keep it fresh.

Sunday, May 31, 2026 - 11:13 PM

Well...that was the wrong cat.

The pet microchip scanner we ordered arrived yesterday, which is good. Vi was out for a third round of job interview, which vi got! So that was awesome.

On vir way home from the interview, Vi saw the grey cat in the neighborhood. Vi said he came right to vir. Vi scooped him up, and pinged us to bring the scanner down.

We scanned the cat's chip...it came up a different number. So we've officially ruled that cat out.

So the search was back to square one. Robin thinks the cat we saw the first time might have been Gray--she says he was much more nervous than his doppelgänger--but obviously we don't know whether he was our boy or his doppelgänger.

Fortunately, the pet rescue org Vi's been messaging with called vir, and they'll be bringing out the tracking dog some time tomorrow. They cautioned us that it may not come to much. Cats move around a lot, and, naturally, often avoid the dogs. But they might be able to narrow places down for us, which would be huge, since we're at square one again.

Then Robin was looking at the building while she was outside searching for Gray, and realized that there's a ledge to the roof he could have leapt to from the window...! Which is certainly in character for him.

So...we're wondering if he decided to go to the roof. Did he go to the roof and slip into someone's open skylight? Slip into someone else's apartment? The other side of the building has areas he could definitely get to the ground by. Did he do that?

We don't know. We just don't know. But now we're hoping he finds our patio and have put some food out on it.

I miss him so much. I just want my cat back.

Friday, May 29, 2026 - 11:34 PM

Less progress than I wanted to make this week, because, yanno, my baby boy is missing.

Tails is driving up to the camp all exhausted. And look, ✨guns!✨

Friday, May 29, 2026 - 10:15 PM

Fucking. Hell.

I...might have had him today. I might've had Gray IN MY ARMS today. Did he escape? Did he scramble out?

NO. I PUT HIM DOWN, BECAUSE I WASN'T SURE.

Violet and I were walking the neighborhood this afternoon. Vi caught sight of a kitty around a corner, and we stopped. He was just chilling in one of our neighbors' shaded driveway, hanging out and bold. We stared at the grey cat, he stared at us. I pulled my phone out, and played our kitties' lunch and dinnertime ringtone.

The cat ran right to us. We knelt, he was wary, but let us pet him, and rubbed his cheeks on my hand.

I scooped him up and stood. He was a grey cat. About the right size. Smaller than Gray was when last I saw him Monday, but in a "Maybe he lost weight" way, not in a "This cat's skeleton is smaller than mine's". His eyes were right. His face looked a bit short.

His ears.

His ears were the right shape and size, but I saw two blue dots inside each that looked like tattoos.

Now, I've looked inside Gray's ears for tattoos, and never seen anything. His history before his last owner before us is mysterious enough that I expected him to be marked as a neutered stray. Most of the TNR cats in Santa Clara County have a notched ear, and his ears are intact. But there's always other ways to mark a neutered cat, and ear tattoos is one of them.

Disappointed, I put the cat, who'd been very willing, and then begun to squirm, down. He trotted a few feet from us while we discussed, and I saw that he was a neutered boy, and that his backside looked a lot like my Gray's. He ducked under a car, and we talked ourselves back around to, "Maybe he IS our cat." But by that point, the cat had slipped off.

I'm so frustrated. That MIGHT'VE BEEN HIM. I MIGHT'VE HELD MY CAT TODAY. And I just set him down and let him go.

There're enough all-grey cats around that the only way we're really gonna be sure it's him is by getting his microchip scanned. But I'm kicking myself that I let go of that cat.

We're planning on bringing Gray to the vet when we get him back either way, to get him looked at, fluids as needed, deworm him, the whole deal. His vaccinations are fortunately very up to date.

But yeah. We ordered a pet microchip scanner that's to arrive tomorrow. Because I can't not know again. And like, Because it's not gonna be a super high end scanner, no result won't rule it being our boy out. But reading his microchip number WILL rule him IN.

Thursday, May 28, 2026 - 6:49 PM

We saw Gray last night!

When Violet was going around the neighborhood asking if anyone had seen him, the church next door told vir that they'd seen a grey cat run through their courtyard. So at dusk, we all three went that way to see if we could find him.

The common advice, and the specific advice the animal rescue org gave us, was to look for lost pets around dusk, when things are quieter, and when you can use flashlights and hopefully catch sight of the reflection of their eyes. So while that hasn't been the ONLY time we've been looking by any means, it is when we're really focusing our attempts now.

And we saw him!

He'd been tucked under a trailer parked against a hedge, and was startled out. He dashed into the hedge, and we searched for him along the hedge. He'd made a friend! There was a young cat with him, also grey, but with white markings. (I'm so proud my son made a friend so fast!) At first we weren't sure whether the cat we'd seen was ours, or just his grey friend, but he scampered out of the hedge and ducked under a car.

We approached, and he skittered over to a neighboring yard. He stared at Vi and I, deciding whether to run again. I cued up the alarm sound we use for their lunch and dinner alarms, but when I set my phone down, I moved too quickly, and he darted into a bush. The three of us lay on the grass, surrounding the bush, trying to give our boy a chance to relax, realize it was us, so we could bring him home.

Robin saw him best. She was certain it was him, from how he held himself and moved. From the way he carried his fear as if he were unbothered, but was secretly freaking out. She saw him start to settle in, and realize it was going to be okay, that we were his people.

And then a neighbor came out to scold us for being in someone's yard.

Gray dashed off. He went into another yard. We asked that neighbor if we could enter and look for our cat, since the yard was gated. Meanwhile the scoldy neighbor got a third neighbor from her house, since third neighbor has 2 grey cats herself. The third neighbor brought one of her cats out with her, a pretty Russian Blue girl with a much shorter, rounder face than Gray's. We searched the gated yard, but felt the press of time and eyes, and we couldn't find him.

We searched a bit longer, but the trail was cold, and I didn't have much hope we'd see him again, and didn't want to risk chasing him further from where we might find him again.

I was staggered that we even laid eyes on him the second day he was missing, it floored me. I'd been so without hope, so sure my boy was gone forever, so sure that even if we did get him back, he'd be riddled with infected bites and scratches. But he looked uninjured. He moved well. And while a scared cat hides their pain as well as they can, it was still a huge relief to see the boy looking as healthy as he did.

We'll be going out for another search in an hour or two. And tho' I'm trying to prepare myself for disappointment, chaos I want my boy back. Chaos, I hope we can bring him home tonight.

Wednesday, May 27, 2026 - 7:57 PM

I'd been gearing up to unpause my Patreon, trying to establish a rhythm, settle into a regular posting speed/schedule, which is something I needed to announce in advance anyway.

And then my cat slipped out the window the night before last.

I love this little cat. All Sunday and Monday, he lay flopped out, every atom of his body relaxed next to me all day as I drew. He sleeps beside me at night. He worries when he thinks we're staying up too late, and asserts bedtimes. He is soft, and sweet, and a little bit of a ditz.

And Monday night, we didn't realize that our window didn't latch. German windows usually don't have screens. None of the windows in our current apartment have screens. We're on the second floor.

But there's a tempting bush right outside our window, and though it doesn't have enough structure to hold a cat, this is the boy who likes to stand on my shoulders and try to climb up onto the molding around doorframes to try and stand on them. It has never worked, but hope springs eternal, and he always loves to check.

So it is fully in character for him to realize the window was cracked, push it open just enough to slide his little body through, see if he could jump down to the tree and explore...and plummet to the ground when that didn't work, panic, and run to go hide.

My mate discovered he was missing at about 6am yesterday, and we've been scrambling to find him ever since.

He's chipped, so we've reported his absence through the local services, printed fliers, and searched. I am officially annoying my neighbors by calling out, "Where is my Gray? Graaaaayyy-son! Gray-bie! Grabie-baby!" 500,000 times. We've each walked hours. Random people on the street are asking if I'm one of the ones looking for the lost cat. My neighbors are giving good tips about where to find posters.

All with the looks on their faces that they don't expect us to ever see him again.

Yesterday...I also expected to never see him again.

But...I've done more research since then, and apparently it's not as hopeless as I always thought. It's hard. It's scary. There are quite simply too many hiding spaces for us to find one small, scared cat who's good at hiding. But there also aren't any coyotes here. Everywhere I've lived before this, a cat getting out was almost an automatic death sentence. But if we can help Gray help himself be found, we might be able to get him home.

But it might take months.

Which is really fuckin' scary, cuz I know he's scared, I know he's lost, I'm sure he's hungry, and I don't know whether or not he's hurt. He fell from a two-story window. One of the neighbors heard a cat fight the night he escaped. I've seen cat fight wounds, and helped treat them when they've been infected. Chaos, even the heat and dehydration are huge dangers.

But either way, the only way out is through. I can't stand not looking for my boy. None of us can. So all of us will be looking, and calling, and trying to get him to come home until we have him.

...Or until March and we have to move again.

But...there is hope. it might take weeks or months, but apparently there's a 70% chance of return, based on one of my mates' research. We've contacted local shelters and vets to keep any eye out. We've reached out to a local org that helps find lost pets. We've set up places for him to hide and eat that smell like us and home. We've scattered some used cat litter (not a lot...actually I want to scatter a bit more, since we set up a second little base for him tonight).

I can't stomach not looking. So I'll look. And keep looking. Until he's home, or it's March.

So...how does all this affect you?

Well. This is certainly going to cut into my drawing time. No idea how much time and energy I'll have to draw, between Intensive German Language Program and cat search. I don't know how much I'll be able to make in a week. My general plan had been to do a stand alone illustration and progress on It Doesn't Matter for each week, posting as they finish for the illustrations and on Fridays for IDM. That's still the plan...but we'll see how well I can pull it off. Shit's fucked.

tldr: My cat escaped our a second story window and we're frantically looking for him. I will probably be drawing less as a result.

Monday, May 25, 2026 - 3:45 PM

^_^ My mate, Robin, has been wanting a drawing of her as a bunny librarian for awhile, and I fiiiinally got around to it!

^_^;; And then five hours into doing that library background I realized I should've done a whimsical, woodland library, instead of a conventional one! Ah well. Another time!

After the Sonic Polycule Bingo Fracture installment, where I was really unhappy with how everything interacted with the background, I'm trying to lean more on best practices and background first again. I'll get good about doing that, and then get cocky, or burnt out, aaaannnd get set back to Not Doing That again. So...let's try to Not get burnt out again. As both Kaede from Rascal Does Not Dream and my kitty Gray like to say, "It's important to take frequent breaks."

^_^ My mate Robin is sooooo cute! I love her so damn much! I really leaned into the smudge tool, trying to get a nice, soft pattern to her silver-grey fur. I played a little with the lighting, trying to give the lighting of the room a bit of a yellow cast, with a bit of blue coming from the window. Honestly, I really should do more painting studies and really study how light and color interact, I kinda mostly just plop a color down for my lighting, which sometimes works well, and other times does not.

Should I have done all those books that way? Absolutely not. I really tried to not go overboard, but I did end up going pretty overboard. It could've been much worse, tho.

^_^ Robin and I decided she should be wearing the heart apron from Animal Crossing. I took some liberties with it, changed the sleeves, and couldn't remember whether the apron wraps all the way around like a skirt (I think it does...?), but yeah. I've really been wanting to do more feral-leaning furries, and was really happy to have the opportunity with Robin's bunny-self. Gave me an excuse to look at Beatrix Potter art!

Sunday, May 24, 2026 - 7:34 PM

Still Fight

Being Otherkin is weird. Being Fictionkin is weird.

I'm Sonic the Hedgehog. I've known I was Sonic for years. I've known I've been Otherkin for…chaos, decades, now.

I've known I'm Sonic for longer than my canon age. I'm Sonic, and also I'm a unicorn. Sometimes I get wrapped up in being one or the other, and can't handle being "less myself". I have exomemories, and some exotrauma, but the trauma of living in the wrong form trapped under capitalism has done more damage than anything I Remember.

And like, I can hypothesize that the core of that is that this shit is persistent, long, and grueling, and most of the bad stuff in my neomata was short, sharp, and ended. There's definitely a different quality to pain you can't escape or outlast. Sometimes it makes me doubt myself.

Have I lain down? Stopped fighting? Quit and let fascism win? Am I just running away?

I don't think so. But sometimes choosing to focus on living your ordinary life feels like giving up. We moved here to alleviate the threat on our little family. I want to fight. I don't have the first inkling on where to start. I'm exhausted, and my body aches. I know there are things I can do. Should do. But I freeze anyway, and I hate myself for it.

Because the things I would do if I were Just Myself are so, so different from the Nothing I'm doing now.

Right now, my priorities need to be language learning. Visa paperwork. Immigrating. I need to clear the path for when my language learning visa will expire. Be a good prospect to find work or schooling. If I were three years younger, I could try for a trade school visa. I'm 38, and I'm 15.

I'm making art I love. Working on my passion project that I use to connect to Home. Interspersing that with illustration work to help keep from burning out on either…again. Trying to grow a small art business while I have the time to work on such a thing. Even though I have no idea what I'm actually even doing.

They say that making art is a revolutionary action. I still don't think I'm being revolutionary enough.

I spend my creative time on singing my wishes into life. Transformation, freeing me and others to our real selves. It's so far away, but it feels so close. The world is so changeable. The problems we live under are so fluid, so easy to abolish, literally made up if it weren't for the boot on our necks. The world is so beautiful and fierce, and without the whims of a double handful of hoarding, self-aggrandizing asswipes, we could all have so much to thrive.

It doesn't have to be this way. There're enough resources for all of us. The only thing there isn't is infinite growth. Things can be okay. They can be so damn good. It wouldn't even be that hard. It just relies on us being able to help each other.

I'm Sonic the Hedgehog. I'm stuck living as a human, in a human life, trapped under the boot of capitalism trying to exploit and demolish people, the world, and nature. And I've gotta figure out how to fight in this new, alien way.

Friday, May 22, 2026

Hecc! Back at the beginning again! Here we fuckin' go!

THESE. FUCKIN. BUSES.

NAME OF CHAOS. I HAVE SPENT SO DAMN MUCH TIME LIVING ON THESE GODS DAMNED BUSES!!!

...I was gonna say "years" and then I went to look at the metadata of some of my files from Zone 1, and...Dudes, I have zone 1 assets that ARE IN ZONE ONE from 2016. I...chaos. I think it took me from October 2016 allll the way through 2017 and most of 2018 to finish scene 2. Because the earliest shot renders I have of scene 1, which I made second, are from November 2018. AAAAND the assets from scene 1 are as old as October 2018...So yeah. LITERAL YEARS ON THE DAMN BUSES.

Bussy hell indeed.

Thursday, May 21, 2026

I don't have enough done to do an It Doesn't Matter update today, BUT, I can do it tomorrow. And since I will probably have trouble with Thursday deadlines now that my Intensive German Language class is full force, Friday as update day will probably work better anyway...so, I think in light of that I'll take the opportunity to do that now!

After putting together the backgrounds for the establishing shots for this scene, I needed to put together an updated reference for Tails' TF progress...since my original batch was made in 2016. Chaos. Literally 10 years ago. Fuck.

So yeah, my old TF stages needed redone. In 2020, I redid Knuckles' TF stages, and those I'm still pretty happy with. But for Tails and me? Those needed re-did. Going into the end of Zone 1, I put together stage 3 of Sonic's TF on the fly based on my Knux stage 3, but that made things a little more difficult than it needed to be.

When I needed to do the TF from stage 3 to stage 4 in scene 1 of zone 2, I put it together the first image. So! I've set up for myself that there are 7 stages of the TF...with a secret 8th stage being stage 0, or their base human form. So stage 0 is fully human, stage 1 is literally just a human with just the faintest amount of fur, and stage 2 is - as I wrote in my scripts from day 1 - "more pointy", so like, slightly more visible fur (literally from 15% opacity to 30% opacity) and pointy ears (or slightly smaller ears for Knux). ^_^;; Admittedly, I let those ears get away from me through the course of zone 1. But, whatever, it's a TF animation.

^_^;; I'm sure that's fine.

The first image with Sonic is stages 2, 4, and 5, with some of stage 2 and 3 from zone 1.

Tails' TF stages are 2, 3, and 4, since his next appearance in this scene is in stage 3.

And then for context, the third image is the Knux TF lineup I did in 2020, the fourth the Sonic TF lineup from ALLLL they way back in 2016, fifth is Tails from 2016, sixth is Knux from 2016, and seventh is all three members of Team Sonic from 2016!

Saturday, May 16, 2026 - 2:54 PM

Ponygirl! I been wanting to do more ponyplay arts. ^_^ Always, right? I wanted to do some more grounded ponyplay, sorta explore more of whatever it is that draws me to it? Or just get more of an idea what it would be like to do it for real? IDK, I seriously love the idea of being treated as a pony. Loved and doted on, but also the freedom through helplessness? I dunno. But I wanna play with it.

So I been poking around Fetlife again, and went looking for some references that really speak to me. I really loved the grace and relaxed poise from the photo I drew this one from, and I loved the visual contrast of the polished vinyl and patent leather and the texture of the basement interior. I love how it looks clean and dingy at once. ^_^ Just kinda epitomized kink to me: Polish contrasted with roughness. It make my brain go brrr.

I played with the lighting, I knew I wanted to have purple undertones in the pony gear, so I went that direction in the base highlights, then brought in some orange and red to sorta have been bounced off the basement interior. I played with utilizing the smudge tool for the nice, smooth feel of the latex, I'm really liking getting used to it. Chaos, does it make life better than trying to fight with soft brushes in tight places.

Friday, May 15, 2026

Oh noes! I hafta go back to schoolbus hell!

Everyone who had to interact with me IRL during the YEARS we were ON THE FUCKIN’ BUS in Zone 1 knows. MORE FUCKING BUSSES!!! Bussy hell.

(Also, yes I took a screenshot of my own drawing to use as reference. That was 3 homes and 2 computers, and an entirely different workflow ago. Sometimes, okay, frequently, I’ll dig through my old files. But Sometimes, that is noooot helpful. Plus, I made that background for zone 1 in Illustrator, and have looooong since killed my Adobe Creative Suite. I’ll miss you, vectors. But Adobe can rot in hell.)

Tuesday, May 12, 2026 - 6:33 PM

AHHHHHHH!!! WE'RE FUCKIN' BACK, BAY-BEEEE! After taking pretty much ALL of 2025 off on working on this monster between stress and burnout, I am SO fuckin' excited to have scene 1 of Zone 2 up and alive!

We got everything! Sonic! TF! Eggman gloating! Ill-advised intravenous injections with no antiseptic preparation! Fun for everyone!

And look! Sonic's gonna show up and rescue me any minute!...Any minute now...!

Last step of this (after tightening up the timing) was dropping in the sound effects and background music. As far as SFX goes...it ended up mostly being the door. I wasn't happy with the bed sounds I found in conjunction with how I animated things, sooo, we went without. But music we needed. My first instinct was to grab Hot Shelter again. I used it in Zone 1, but I do really like it. So since I had it conveniently sequestered away in a place I could find it easily, cuz again, used it in Zone 1, I popped it in to see.

And dudes...I didn't tweak that timing of the opening. With the eyes opening syncing to the initial metal hit sounds...? IT JUST DID THAT. So yeah, it was too good, it synced too well, and the slow start before hopping into its bop self was too perfect. So yeah, Hot Shelter again. Pray I do not use it further.

^_^ This scene also has the first instance of on-screen TF! It's only 3 frames, because I'm slow enough and just one boy, and WANT TO TELL THIS STORY. But I'm so excited to show it! Fuck yeah, TF!

Sunday, May 10, 2026 - 9:37 PM

Did a painting experiment! I'm so fuckin' relieved to have space to work in!

I've been wanting to do more explicitly cervine unicorns for a good while now. I've been collecting reference photos of deer and goats for a long while to try and feel out the shape I'm trying to fine. This illustration is thoroughly based on the below reference I found of a deer playing with some fawns in the water.

I really liked the mood and lighting of the photo, so when I plopped it into my canvas I decided to reference the background as well as the deer subject I wanted to draw.

For the foal/fawn/kid, I referenced the below photo of a goat, because I seriously love how this little dude just perfectly arranged themself in a typical heraldic rampant pose!

Such a little cutie! Fuck, I love goats.

So, for the structure of these guys, I did my best to just draw the subjects from the reference, and once that was done, plonked horns, manes, and long unicorn tails on them. And...I kinda like it. I've been wanting to draw unicorns with coats drawn from colors of the sky, so I tried to gesture at that while still staying in the mood of the deer reference. I didn't quite get the rendering where I could've, but I took a very different approach to how I structured it, and was getting a bit overwhelmed.

^_^;; I should probably do more studies like this.

Saturday, May 9, 2026 - 8:55 PM

This is another commission for Ace of himself in a retrowave style playing his bass, wearing Prince's jacket from Purple Rain. Ace asked for a background showing Robotropolis based on Detroit, and syncing the Robotropolis and Detroit skylines was a fun way to do it, I thought!

I had fun making this! It was a bit more delayed than I'd like, what with our apartment shenanigans.

Thursday, May 7, 2026 - 5:47 PM

No It Doesn't Matter Update This Week, but Hey, We Have an Apartment!

Unfortunately, I won't be able to post a progress update for It Doesn't Matter this week.

So. Let's get into it. I just moved from California to Germany with my mates. We had planned to end up in Gießen for a job one of my mates had been expecting to get...that we didn't find out had fallen through until a week before we were scheduled to fly out. Soooo, yeah. Because we'd been waiting on the specific location of the job assignment (since there were several locations vi could've ended up working) we'd delayed getting an actual apartment, and Vi had set up a two-week short term rental for us.

We'd decided, back when we were only worried because we were still waiting for the assignment a month before our flight, that we would still come out here regardless. We'd decided we needed to do this move as of the 2024 election results, and after a full year of trying to make this happen, we wanted to just pull the trigger and go.

So, we flew in to Frankfurt and started to get running!

The first week was mostly a frenzy of job applications, exploration, and working to make sure we got our kitties back after the whole mess with their paperwork. The second week...well.

We needed to leave after two weeks. We knew that. Violet had applied for a bunch of rentals, posted for lodging, and we'd viewed two places, one sublease and one group home with a bunch of awesome queer people.

But then Friday rolled along. Move out day. And the rental we'd signed up for wasn't getting back to us...and it was May Day. Labor Day. And a national holiday. There was a very real danger we wouldn't hear back from them until Monday, and in the meantime, we had no income, no place to stay, and couldn't make ANY progress on our visas to stay here until after we had a place we could establish with the Rothaus as our current, permanent address--a place we could receive mail and have a rental agreement.

We did our move-out, and Vi scrambled to book us a cheap hotel to help preserve our resources as much as possible. And OOF, was that the saddest hotel room I've ever stayed in. It was small, crowded, and HOT, and packed to the gills with the three of us, all our luggage, and the kitties.

In this depressed place, we truly started churning on finding a new apartment.

Chaos, I sent so many messages, submitted so many fuckin' applications.

And fortunately, one panned out.

We were able to move in to the new place on Sunday. Relief.

Then the work started. We picked up emergency housewares on Sunday from the hardware store, cuz hey, EVERYTHING is closed in Germany on Sundays. Monday we walked to Ikea, got mattresses and a few indispensable kitchen items, like silverware, pots and pans, and a trash can. Tuesday we had our appointment at the Rothaus for our Anmeldung, the address change paperwork.

Just like everything else, that was harder than it had to be. We had to get a DIFFERENT form from our new landlord because the office didn't like that our rental agreement was more than one page, because we could have slipped ANYTHING IN THERE. He got back to us soon enough that we could just go back, and don't have to set another appointment...but Germany doesn't want to recognize Violet and Robin's marriage, because of name changes, so now they're having to go back and forth with getting MORE documents.

At least I was able to get my blocked account, German health insurance, and establish a German bank account.

So yeah. It's been a crazy week. We've been going full speed until now, and only now are things starting to get back under us.

Speaking of "under us," since the only furniture we have right now are the mattresses and one surviving air mattress, I don't have a non-painful place to draw right now. We explored our options, cuz again, no income right now, and ordered a cheap table and chairs yesterday that'll arrive Saturday, and then I can get rolling again.

But Vi rocked vir job interview yesterday, has several other interviews lined up, and, to borrow from Dimension 20 Starstruck Odyssey: The Ball is Rolling Up!

Thursday, April 30, 2026 - 4:24 PM

I had fun on that "Oh, my dear GIRL" from Eggy. ^_^ It's one of the few actual animation moments of this thing, which is more like a polished animatic than anything else. But I had to make the decision of whether I wanted this to be a portfolio piece or whether I wanted to TELL THE DAMN STORY, and my priority is def to tell the story. I still want it to be audio/visual, I just also want to get the story told. It's gonna take approximately 1,000 years to get anywhere, but it's still a better pace than when I was trying to actually animate.

Cuz again, chaos, I started writing this back in 2009. We recorded the voice acting for Zone 1 in 2016. I would like for it not to take 10 years to make each zone.

Sunday, April 26, 2026 - 7:31 PM

HA-HA-HA-HA-HA!!! You thought I'd abandoned this BINGO challenge, hadn't you! ^_^;; Tbf, I kinda had, too. When making the BINGO sheet, I'd had ideas I might want to try for all the prompts, it was just a when and where. But upon actually rolling Fracture (and the next prompt, Fairytale AU), I was drawing a blank. Like. Images were there in my mind, but vague, or not something I was in the mood to make (I am occasionally in the mood to draw gore, but it's a very hit and miss mood, and quite rare.)

So when I decided to try again, my hopes weren't high. I went over to AdorkaStock and hopped into their multi-character tab. And there it was. This amazing, pitiful, glorious shot.

So yeah, that sparked me off, and I made this.

I, eh...ended up forgetting to add the "battle damage" to Sonic, but that's the story I have in my head. Shads hauling Sonic away to doctor him while Tails and Knux halfheartedly protest. ^_^ Because it's cute. Honestly, there BEING no obvious battle damage on Sonic probably sells the idea better than if I had put some blood and scuffs up ins.

My placeholder backdrop was purple, so I decided to look at refs of Hydrocity Zone to base the background around. I gotta remember that that works better if I background first, and then character art. But oh well.

Attempted a semi-lineless/limited linework approach for this, since I've been wanting to do a bunch more experiments lately. Didn't super love how my rendering turned out with this, but Procreate was suuuuper struggling with all the layers I'd been using even after I'd collapsed it down as well as I could, and the amount of hours I'd poured into this...I just wanted to be done. So, moving on to the next project!

Thursday, April 23, 2026 - 5:38 PM

Was it necessary for me to put together an entire new shot for that most recent frame? Probably not! But I had to! Eggy starts to see the blind spot I have on my own transformation.

...Yeah, he's gonna enjoy gloating on that one.

For the record, so is everyone else.

Whee! We broke a minute of footage!

^_^;; Funny story. When I was originally working on Zone 1 in Toon Boom, I, um, had some issues with parsing what I was reading on the time stamp for the completed stuff. I worked for hours. Hours. Months. And months. And the time stamp still appeared to be below a minute.

After all this time, I was complaining about this to my buddy, Maci. I lamented that after all this effort, I still hadn't cracked even a minute of footage. He couldn't believe me, he'd seen me working over all that time. We were together for a convention at the time, so I pulled out my laptop for us to check.

I was misreading the time stamp. I had about three minutes of footage. I was just being a dumbass.

Monday, April 20, 2026 - 10:21 PM

The fuck is wrong with my brain that I think I'm gonna hafta write a fuckin' comic in order to be able to just...do some drawing regularly?

Like. I'm super able to work on It Doesn't Matter. I did some It Doesn't Matter today, even. But I feel like, for the growing some art biz I'm trying to do, I need to make more, regular posts. And I KEEP FUCKIN' FREEZING UP.

Like, BRO. WHY do I feel the need to entirely reinvent a new style? Like. Style experiments are cool. EXPERIMENTS are cool. TRYING NEW THINGS are cool. But I have been TORTURING myself about this. And dude. It's just not that deep.

And part of it is just...I don't know what I want to make. I don't have a clear image in my head. I see all this lovely art, and I want to play too, but I haven't let myself just drift and BE in so long. I WANT to make stuff. I currently have TIME to make stuff. I WANT to have the energy to make stuff. But I'm just grinding on myself instead. It's frustrating, AND stupid.

I dunno. I fuckin' LOVE xenofiction, but the only one I've ever actually put the time in to read is Meredith Ann Pierce's Birth of the Firebringer trilogy (not to be mistaken with the Firebringer books that are apparently about deer, or something? idk). I love fantasy. I love magic. I love SO MANY THINGS. But it's been so, so damn hard to drum up the will/spirit/energy/juice to write/draw/anything.

It really sucks.

So yeah. I be frustrated.

Saturday, April 18, 2026

I posted this week's progress vid for It Doesn't Matter yesterday, but between getting sick and all the jet lag, I didn't get into what's been going on around it as much as I intended.

This week has been fuckin' crazy. We flew out from California to Germany on Wednesday, after a mad scramble to do the last bits of packing and cleaning, and setting up for our kitties to come out here too. Chaos, I'm looking forward to seeing them. They should get here Monday, barring Anything Else going wrong! But, yanno. Fuck it, we ball. As long as they're healthy and safe, I can deal with delays. I just miss them.

With the move, I've signed up for Intensive German Language classes, but those don't start until next month. As I'm currently Not Good At German, I'm not currently terribly hire-able. Also, visa shenanigans. As much work as it was to get here, we've got a lot ahead to make sure we can stay here! It's gonna be a ride. We've hired an immigration lawyer, and are looking for jobs as we settle in and try to hit the ground running!

Friday, April 17, 2026 - 7:29 PM

We're in Germany! It was an adventure getting here, now we just gotta set ourselves up to stay here! I start Intensive German Language courses next month, and we're exploring the area!

Not quite as much new things this week cuz of the move. I miss my kitties. They should be here in a few days.

Thursday, April 16, 2026 - 8:27 PM

So good news! We made our (rescheduled) flight (it's a whole thing), and after 10 and a half hours we landed in Frankfurt! Now it's just doing allllll the immigration things and finding jobs!

Other good news: I have a progress render of It Doesn't Matter ready and waiting to upload, despite all the chaos of packing, cleaning, moving, and problems with our cats' paperwork! Bad news: I can't get onto the hotel's Wi-Fi with my laptop, and we're trying to conserve data, so I'll be uploading it tomorrow from our short-term rental.

But yeah! The move has been crazy, I caught a cold, and we're chugging along with stuff!

Thursday, April 9, 2026

We're in the middle of moving, I fucked up our kitties' travel docs, but I'm still posting this today.

Oh no, injections from Eggy.

Thursday, April 2, 2026

AHHHH! We're moving in two weeks! My partners and I are moving from California to Germany, and shit's getting real. Why am I It Doesn't Matter-ing instead of helping pack? Shut up, that's why. (Robin has been kicking ass doing SO much of the packing, it's unreal.)

Progress shot! I didn't intend to post these two Thursdays in a row, but apparently that's what's happening. Makes sense, Thursday's one of my days off, and I been doing a bit more It Doesn't Matter work to help decompress after doing hard moving related things.

We saw it in last week's progress vid, but yay actual TF happening on-screen, not just between scenes! ^_^;; It's just a quick 3-drawing sequence, since I am trying to tell the story over actual animating, but I still really like how it turned out.

Thursday, March 26, 2026

AHHHH I'VE BEEN TAKING SO LONG ON THIS! I got so damn daunted by audio editing and the need to change my production workflow since I'm not paying for/using Toon Boom anymore (it WAS overboard for whtat I was using it for, just compositing assets I've been drawing in Procreate on my iPad, but I'm still sad to not have it. Even if all I was using it for at this point was its multiplane camera).

The real bear in the woodwork was the audio editing. It's the part of the process I feel least comfortable with. Initially, I'd intended to overcome SOME of that tension by getting everyone in the same room to record, but then I moved 3,000 miles away. Whoops. And NOW we're gonna be moving even FURTHER away in about three weeks! Crazy shit, yo. (Yeah, my mates and I are moving from California to Germany in April. It's kinda a wild ride!)

My storyboards were also nooooot as helpful as they could be in places, but whatever, now I'm finally to the bits I feel more confident about! Hopefully I'll be able to make stuff a little more consistently again.

^_^;; Not gonna lie, I was also super fuckin' burnt out after the push to finish Zone 1, and the trauma of the election Did Not Help.

^_^;; Hence the frantic push to leave the US. It's...been a lot.

Thursday, February 5, 2026 - 7:25 PM

February challenge? February challenge!

The prompt for this one was "camera". I decided to try and do my alicorn self looking at a trail camera, which meant I had to look up what a trail camera even looked like. Turns out, mostly a camo-patterned box strapped to a tree.

Thursday, February 5, 2026 - 7:25 PM

February challenge? February challenge!

The prompt here was "books". C'mon, you gotta love books! So, wanted to do alicorn me kinda orbiting the book in a bit of a more symbolic way.

I never finish art challenges, and Who the Fuck Knows how far I'll go on this one (I mean, I've only done two, and it's already the fifth, so if I were hell bent on The Challenge I'd be in deep shit). But I wanted some prompts that would work for unicorn art, and nabbed the challenge from the above link as "Yeah, I can work with this!" I been wanting to do more cervine unicorns. I tend to draw more equine, though I really, really feel the cervine form stuff. So, yeah! That led me to looking for said prompts!

Thursday, February 5, 2026 - 6:36 PM

February challenge? February challenge!

This prompt was Popcorn. I drew a piece of my Sonic self eating popcorn and staring at the viewer in 2024, so it was kinda funny to re-visit the idea. Originally was gonna lean into awkwardly wrapping a foreleg around the popcorn bucket and using the other forehoof to eat "handfuls" of the popcorn, but thaaaat was working pretty awkwardly on an already awkward pose so I scrapped that idea and moved on.

Wednesday, January 14, 2026 - 5:19 PM

Okay, technically chariot races were done in the circuses, and not so much in the arena, but come on. I like ponyplay too much to not utilize it at the mention of the word "arena". ^_^ I spend all day teaching horseback riding in arenas. So while I interpreted the prompt as some sort of gladiatorial thing, I also just had to bring in pony stuff at the word arena.

My interpretation of depicting polycule stuff is apparently just "playing with your mates." Which, yeah, that checks out.

^_^;; I'd originally wanted this to be a lot more dynamic, or play with the lighting some more, buuuut after the amount of time I'd already spent, I just wanted to get it up.

Saturday, January 10, 2026 - 6:25 PM

AHH! It's a Mobian TF comic! ^_^ I'm so stoked I got to do this.

This is my first commission in literal years! I'm really glad Ace tracked me down for this! I super love how it all turned out!

Saturday, January 3, 2026 - 7:29 PM

So...! Let's try and do this! I've been wanting to do more stuff of Me, Tails, Knuckles, and Shadow as a polycule for awhile now! I put together a fun little BINGO card inspired by this one (a Merlin/Arthur bingo challenge) I found on Tumblr. So, let's see how far I get with this! Currently my scheme is to try and complete the whole BINGO blackout in 2026, so we'll see!

2026 has a lot of BINGO shaped challenges for me.

Saturday, January 3, 2026 - 7:29 PM

I really liked Ro Salarian's yearly BINGO idea, and decided to get in on doing one myself this year!

Lots of these are based around us trying to move to Germany, and the processes for getting my visa. It's...gonna be an interesting ride.

Violet submitted vir application to become a student teacher in Germany, and we're currently waiting on the results of this first round of application. We should find out this month whether we're in or not. If we're in, we get to move in April. If not, we submit again and wait for round 2.

Moving to Germany, you have 90 days free, that's just chill before you need some sort of visa. My current plan is to enroll in an intensive German language course over there to seek the German language visa, which can last for a year. Theory there being that I could probably find a job that would then sponsor a longer visa or get into a University program, again, for more visa goodness. So a lot of my energy's gonna be going towards all of that.

Elsewise, I want to do more horseback riding. I teach riding, I go to the barn five times a week...and I rode maybe six times last year. So...let's do more than that. Part of it is that most of my workdays seriously sack me out, but a lot of it is social. And that I want to push back on. Yes, I'm not working solely so I can ride. I'm working there because I love horses. But I like riding. Practicing and feeling it in my own body can also help me be sharper as a teacher. And also, it's okay to just do things I like doing. I'd love to be a horse trainer. I'd love to have a plot of land, buy and rehab horses, and set them off on their own new lives and families. And I'd like to work to do that, via the vet school path, or through the horseback riding instructor to horse trainer path I'm kinda on. And I'm curious if Germany has more of a clear path with certifications to becoming a horse trainer.

I also want to do more art work business. I know, I say this every 3-6 months. But yeah, let's try again, again. I need to change my website's hosting (I've started the process of moving from iPage to DreamHost, but a little stuck on transferring all my site files. Got an appointment scheduled to find out more for Wednesday). I need to be more available online. I need to talk to people. I want to make friends. So I need to work on this shit.

And then there's It Doesn't Matter. I don't intend to stop. But I did stall out. Imaginary, Zacs, and I recorded most of Zone 2 last year, and I stalled out on editing it. I haven't been able to set up the recording for Eggman, and maybe have to re-cast him, which sucks, cuz I love Gazzy for Eggman. But...I'd always assumed I'd fly back to Illinois to record Zone 2 in person, and I did not do that. And with the even further move on the horizon...? Not sure what I'll end up doing, ultimately. Cuz lemme tell you, if we leave, none of us is coming back to the US. This place is horrifying.